A Bittersweet Turn of Events

God grant me the serenity to accept the things I cannot change, the courage to change the things I can, and the wisdom to know the difference.
– Reinhold Niebuh

Normally I wouldn’t write anything this personal for the world to read, but I’d like to briefly share our recent journey so that we might possibly begin moving forward again. It’s been difficult to blog in the past month as our family has been experiencing many changes. I am thankful to have had the wisdom to know that separating from Emerson’s father was the right thing to do and that we’d all be better for it eventually. I didn’t realize the extent to which it was needed until all was said and done. Thanks to a support system of family, friends and co-workers, Emme and I are now living in a town I have always called home, even after 10 years of different zip codes. I feel blessed beyond words that my parents have welcomed us into their home, and also that my employer sent me off into the world, no questions asked, to work for them remotely. A little bit of courage has carried me a long way and while we still have a way to go, I know that as long as I have the well-being of my daughter in mind we will always be headed in the right direction. Even change for the better brings heartache; it was never my intent to hurt anyone along the way, but it is my hope that we will heal and emerge as better people/parents because of it. Perhaps the hardest part of all is accepting the things I can not change. I know this will require constant effort, but so it goes the future comes one day at a time.

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    Love you and E. And the rest of your fam. for that matter.

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